Wednesday was my last day to eat & drink whatever I felt like. Honestly, I don’t feel like I went as wild as I was anticipating. I picked up an iced coffee (unsweet with half & half) from Starbucks, grabbed a breakfast burrito from Sonic (no fries or tots, just the burrito) and headed off to class. I had a few hours of work to do before I could come home so, I stopped to grab a bacon cheeseburger and diet Coke at One and Only in McKinney. I was a little irritated because I forgot to get fries but wasn’t hungry after eating the burger.
Mid-morning, I got a call from the PA at the surgeon’s office. She left a voicemail about my triglycerides being slightly elevated and that potentially putting me at risk for post-op pancreatitis. Scary! The good news is that she said if I follow my pre-op diet, she feels certain they’ll return to normal levels and there will be minimal cause for concern post-op. Not exactly the call you want to get- but so far all my other tests have been clear. I’m pretty thankful!
My 15-minute drive home went a little like this:
-Stomach knotting up
-Worrying about going out to dinner. Will I enjoy it enough? Will I regret what I’ve eaten?
-Should we cook at home? Will I regret not cooking another big dinner with Alex? What did we even cook together last time?
-What if I can’t stick to my pre-op good enough and get pancreatitis? Other people are tempted to cheat on their pre-op diet, what if I do too?
Oh, anxiety… I was wondering when you’d show back up.
When I got home I sat in my car for a minute and thought about why I’d been feeling so anxious.
1. If I didn’t like the food I was eating for my last meal, I have every capability to get up and eat somewhere else. I love sushi. I love sushi so much I want to be one big giant sushi. I wasn’t going to regret it. I’d be perfectly content with it. It’s sushi.
2. We were going to be making a big pot of pre-op diet approved soup the very next day. We will continue cooking with each other. This isn’t the end of us cooking all together, it’s just changing a bit.
3. Taking it day-by-day, I don’t think I’ll be tempted to cheat. Tonight is a good friend’s birthday and the most tempting thing there will be a 750 of Jameson. However, this is two weeks of work for a lifetime of better habits. I can say no but I’m also capable of setting myself up for success. I’ll bring a nice pitcher of decaf tea. 🙂
We had dinner at one of my favorite sushi restaurants and then went over to Bar Louie for martinis. I never knew I’d enjoy a martini until I tried their Rat Pack- it changed everything. We went home and I had my last bit of alcohol and nicotine.
My pre-op diet is significantly more flexible than others that I’ve read. I have a shake for breakfast & lunch. Dinner is 2 cups of a broth based soup. I’m allowed a snack or two that can be either cottage cheese, yogurt or sugar free Jello.
I made the fatal mistake yesterday of drinking a smoothie mix rather than a protein shake mix. The major difference is the amount of calories and protein between the two. The smoothie mix only had 80/cal rather than 120/cal and 10g/protein vs. 20g/protein. Yesterday was stressful because I had booked an oddly high amount of appointments for a Thursday. We were also trying to help get Debs out the door for her Uganda trip. There was just a lot going on.
I felt disrupted because I didn’t stop to get my normal iced coffee (which isn’t a BAD drink- I just can’t have caffeine pre-op), I also couldn’t have any nicotine and I was way down on calories. I was definitely not setting myself up right. Last night I ordered decaf cold brew on Amazon (which arrived 12 hours after I ordered it. I love Amazon.) and made sure my other meal replacements had a better amount of protein in them. All day I felt like I was moving in slow motion and just felt exhausted.
Last night’s soup was great. Carrots, onion, celery, cabbage, chicken, small amount of egg noodles… literally everything you could want in soup. Although I felt dead tired while we were making it, it was well worth it! Something about soup from scratch is just the best.
This morning I had a much more protein packed shake. I’m still missing nicotine and caffeine, but if that’s the worst part of this then I’ll be alright.
Cheers to breakfast, lunch and dinner!