Vacation & the sleeve

I’m finally able to eat pureed foods and soft foods. Let me tell you, it’s glorious.

Alex & I were able to take an impromptu trip to Colorado this week. We spent a few nights in Denver and our last day/night in Colorado Springs. It was so wonderful to get away. We’ve been ultra busy lately- his eye surgery, my VSG surgery, work going a mile a minute… we’ll just say, we needed it! When the mountains are callin’, ya gotta go.

The last time I was in Colorado was last October when Debi got a wild hair and a great deal on plane tickets. Here is a comparison picture from then and from this week!

 

Yikes. There’s that. I can’t tell you exactly how much I weigh in the left picture, but we’ll say it was at my starting weight. Between here and that picture there is a THIRTY SIX POUND DIFFERENCE! Holy moly! Just… insane. I see it a bit in my body, but mostly see it in my face. I can tell I’ve lost weight because my eyes and mouth have both gotten bigger. I forgot that happens when I lose weight.

Finding puree or soft food appropriate foods was a little tougher than I expected. Although, most restaurants sold some kind of fish and that was really great! Chick-fil-a also will make you scrambled cheesy eggs… this was a major win.

Anyway, much like all adoring mothers like to list of the things their babies love to eat, I’ll give you a list of things that don’t make me want to puke:
-avocado
-eggs
-meatballs
-cheese
-refried beans
-cottage cheese
-salmon
-tuna

I’m still having a protein shake a day- 60 grams of protein is REALLY hard to get in when you can only eat a condiment cup size of food at once. I’m working on it! When I can, I try to add protein powder to foods. It doesn’t always happen, but at least I’m really well hydrated. I’ve got that going for me!

In other news, several of my dresses now look “frumpy”. They’re baggy and look weird in certain spots. This is a very new feeling. I’m anxious to get rid of all my clothes because trying to find a dress this weekend was extremely frustrating. I’m not going to rush out and buy a ton of new clothes yet- but I’d really love to get rid of the ones that aren’t working.

True Confessions: I did buy a size XL shirt while in Colorado and a size L shirt at the Jimmy Eat World/Incubus concert. I had to.
-Alee

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7 Days Liquid & 7 Days Left

My full liquid diet started seven days ago. I feel like I’m getting the hang of it! The most major changes have obviously been cutting out eating normal foods, no alcohol, no caffeine and no nicotine. It has been a busy, tiring and interesting week:

Day 1- Tired and underprepared. Cottage cheese late afternoon snack gave me life.
Day 2- Birthday party for a couple of friends including chips, dips, pizza, Jameson… All things that I love. It wasn’t hard to turn them down, just felt kind of out of place not being able to enjoy myself in the same way as everybody else.
Days 3 & 4- Busy and long days at work. It was difficult getting all my protein in between appointments.
Day 5- Better! It was less difficult being around everybody eating and drinking what they wanted. Getting the hang of timing my shakes right. Found some fabulous GNC shakes that taste like Starbucks drinks and satisfy all my pre-op requirements.
Day 6- Feeling great. Staying hydrated, having my protein and not feeling like I needed a 2nd snack or all of my soup.
Day 7- Bought 2 cases of the GNC shakes (treat yo self) and for the first time in a week, not having chicken and veggie soup for dinner!  Had a fabulous cup of Pho soup that meets the requirements (maybe a little sodium high, but I’ll be back to my chicken and veggies soon enough) and couldn’t have been happier with it.

I’ve been doing lots of mindful thinking. Thinking about the shakes I’m putting into my body. No, it isn’t an omelette and isn’t as fun to eat or as delicious- but it’s giving my body the exact nutrients that it needs! I’m also trying to pay better attention to when I’m not hungry anymore. I think that we’re all very used to just eating whats in front of us. Sometimes that’s ok because it’s healthy stuff in front of us. But- we need to be able to recognize when we’re done. That’s something new for me!

One week of full liquids and I’m down 15 lbs. Fifteen! Fifteen. How wild is that? I’ve got 5 more days of full liquids (shakes, cottage cheese/yogurt/jello snacks and chicken with veggie soup) and then the final two days are clear liquids only. It feels GREAT to step on the scale every morning and see it go down! I feel like this is a little taste of what post-op might feel like. I know every day I won’t lose and will probably stall after a few months, but it sure is nice seeing the scale get into numbers I haven’t seen in years. I’m now below my lowest weight from a couple of years ago when I was hitting the gym at 5:00 Monday-Friday and eating right! All it took was a medically supervised liquid fast- haha!

Last trip to the grocery store: I think on day 4 of the liquid fast I’d gone to the grocery store for more cottage cheese (story of my life) and saw some tiny cocktail spoons. One thing I’ve seen other weight loss surgery patients recommend is using these to slow down your meals! I figured, hey- why not make the tiny bit of cottage cheese you get last longer! Try these! So, I grabbed them. When I got to the register, the high school aged cashier scanned the tiny spoons. Upon putting them in the bag she said, “Awww, tiny spoons! Are you going to eat a tiny meal with the tiny spoons?”

Yes, yes I am.
-Alee

Food Finale & Liquid Diet

Wednesday was my last day to eat & drink whatever I felt like. Honestly, I don’t feel like I went as wild as I was anticipating. I picked up an iced coffee (unsweet with half & half) from Starbucks, grabbed a breakfast burrito from Sonic (no fries or tots, just the burrito) and headed off to class. I had a few hours of work to do before I could come home so, I stopped to grab a bacon cheeseburger and diet Coke at One and Only in McKinney. I was a little irritated because I forgot to get fries but wasn’t hungry after eating the burger.

Mid-morning, I got a call from the PA at the surgeon’s office. She left a voicemail about my triglycerides being slightly elevated and that potentially putting me at risk for post-op pancreatitis. Scary! The good news is that she said if I follow my pre-op diet, she feels certain they’ll return to normal levels and there will be minimal cause for concern post-op. Not exactly the call you want to get- but so far all my other tests have been clear. I’m pretty thankful!

My 15-minute drive home went a little like this:
-Stomach knotting up
-Worrying about going out to dinner. Will I enjoy it enough? Will I regret what I’ve eaten?
-Should we cook at home? Will I regret not cooking another big dinner with Alex? What did we even cook together last time?
-What if I can’t stick to my pre-op good enough and get pancreatitis? Other people are tempted to cheat on their pre-op diet, what if I do too?

Oh, anxiety… I was wondering when you’d show back up.

When I got home I sat in my car for a minute and thought about why I’d been feeling so anxious.
1. If I didn’t like the food I was eating for my last meal, I have every capability to get up and eat somewhere else. I love sushi. I love sushi so much I want to be one big giant sushi. I wasn’t going to regret it. I’d be perfectly content with it. It’s sushi.
2. We were going to be making a big pot of pre-op diet approved soup the very next day. We will continue cooking with each other. This isn’t the end of us cooking all together, it’s just changing a bit.
3. Taking it day-by-day, I don’t think I’ll be tempted to cheat. Tonight is a good friend’s birthday and the most tempting thing there will be a 750 of Jameson. However, this is two weeks of work for a lifetime of better habits. I can say no but I’m also capable of setting myself up for success. I’ll bring a nice pitcher of decaf tea. 🙂

We had dinner at one of my favorite sushi restaurants and then went over to Bar Louie for martinis. I never knew I’d enjoy a martini until I tried their Rat Pack- it changed everything. We went home and I had my last bit of alcohol and nicotine.

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My pre-op diet is significantly more flexible than others that I’ve read. I have a shake for breakfast & lunch. Dinner is 2 cups of a broth based soup. I’m allowed a snack or two that can be either cottage cheese, yogurt or sugar free Jello.

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I made the fatal mistake yesterday of drinking a smoothie mix rather than a protein shake mix. The major difference is the amount of calories and protein between the two. The smoothie mix only had 80/cal rather than 120/cal and 10g/protein vs. 20g/protein. Yesterday was stressful because I had booked an oddly high amount of appointments for a Thursday. We were also trying to help get Debs out the door for her Uganda trip. There was just a lot going on.

I felt disrupted because I didn’t stop to get my normal iced coffee (which isn’t a BAD drink- I just can’t have caffeine pre-op), I also couldn’t have any nicotine and I was way down on calories. I was definitely not setting myself up right. Last night I ordered decaf cold brew on Amazon (which arrived 12 hours after I ordered it. I love Amazon.) and made sure my other meal replacements had a better amount of protein in them. All day I felt like I was moving in slow motion and just felt exhausted.

Last night’s soup was great. Carrots, onion, celery, cabbage, chicken, small amount of egg noodles… literally everything you could want in soup. Although I felt dead tired while we were making it, it was well worth it! Something about soup from scratch is just the best.

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This morning I had a much more protein packed shake. I’m still missing nicotine and caffeine, but if that’s the worst part of this then I’ll be alright.
Cheers to breakfast, lunch and dinner!
-Alee